It’s my birthday today… 🙁

I’m just needing some words of encouragement. I’m having a really rough day. First off I suffer from depression and anxiety and on medication and therapy right now. But anyways. Every year for my close family’s birthdays (sister, mom, husband) I always send a message at exactly 12am telling them happy birthday and how wonderful they are. And try to make them have the best birthday possible. And this year I’m not sure why but I thought that at least one of them would message me at midnight (my husband and mom were at working working nights) and when I realized they weren’t going to around 1am I cried myself to sleep. Then I did wake up to happy birthday messages from all of them but my husband woke me up super early (2 hours earlier than I usually get up) then he took a bath and went to bed. I spent the entire day deep cleaning the house and then my daughter and laid down for a nap then I got up and we went to his moms for dinner. That was it… no one got me anything, not even a card, it’s the first year I didn’t get a cake (in my entire life) and I feel so sad and unimportant and invaluable. So here I am again laying in bed crying again while my husband plays video games downstairs. I just want someone to love me like I give my love to them. Just once.