Tell me I’m not the only one

I feel like I can’t talk to anyone about a guy I might like, I’m super depressed and have really bad anxiety and I tell my mom everything, my best friend everything, my therapist everything but for some reason I can’t seem to even be able to tell myself about this guy (yk lol) like I wanna talk about it I feel like I need to talk about it but I feel like I can’t and don’t want to even though I’m surrounded by people

It may not be about a guy or a SO but do you ever feel like you wanna talk about something but you feel like you can’t, or for some reason just can’t bring yourself to do it?