I’m not a good friend

When I was younger I used to hang out with my friends and love play dates, and I would go to family gatherings (because my mom made me but still). But once I got older into my teenage years, I kind of just stopped wanting to hang out with people and I don’t know why. People would want to go to the mall or see a movie or just sleep over and I just didn’t want to. It’s like I’ll only want to hang out with my boyfriend and my immediate family. It sucks because I feel so lonely and feel like I am the reason I have no friends. I’m 23 now and I can’t help but feel like everyone has ill intentions or I just plain don’t have energy to hang out or make conversation. I don’t like talking a lot or going places. My old best friend and I used to just hang out and not talk a lot and then she moved (about 10 years ago) and I haven’t had a friend since that I’ve wanted to hang out with. I wish so badly that I was more of a girl’s girl and could spark up conversation and be bubbly and happy but I’m just such a gloomy, quiet person. I can sure pretend to be bubbly at work but it’s so so exhausting. I want soul friends so bad but maybe I’m just not the type. I don’t really know if there’s a question in here anywhere, it just gets so lonely and I needed to vent