Boyfriend lied. ..

Im so furious. .. I just went through my bf phone because I know he lied to me about he Goin to his friends house and I fou out that he went to a strip club, we barely have sex and he told one of his close friends that he even ejaculate and he love it.... I feel betrayed idk if I'm supposed to feel this way I'm 100% honest with I'm and I respect him too. I don't think that I deserve it. ... I do t even want he to touch me or sleep with him......