Why is it so hard to..

I don't know why it's so hard for me to block my ex.. I know I'm over him but I still have love for him.

Our relationship was based off lies to begin with and became mentally and sometimes physically abusive..

I became pregnant by him and I feel like that has a part in my feelings. I know I can easily raise my son without him and can still receive child support once he's born.. it's just hard.

He sent me this earlier. I've told him many times I don't want to be with him anymore.. but i can't bring myself to block him. Idk

I also want to mention I've got his phone number blocked and another burner number he's been using to contact me... He tried calling as a restricted number from his blocked number and had created a new burner number to contact me ... I just want to be left alone.. I'm so tired and frustrated from all of this.. I'm going to call my phone company on Monday or maybe go to a store tomorrow to have them completely block the number from my account so that be cant use a restricted number to contact me. I regret not getting the restraining order...