Sometimes I just don’t know what I want anymore

I just want to know that I’m not the only one

Some days I feel so so low and lost, I start questioning my relationship with my partner, I start questioning my career, I start questioning whether trying for a baby is a good idea, I start thinking I could just be like the rest of my family and bum of government payments and not work ! I just ‘don’t know’

I’ve been with my boyfriend for almost 7 years, I have a secure position within local government (Horticulturist), I am healthy, I have my beautiful dogs, our house is just about to start getting built but here I am having a massive freak out cause I don’t know what I’m supposed to be doing anymore 😔

I love my job and the people are great, some mornings I get up (4:30am) and I’m just ☹️ then I put on my face and go to work. By the end of the day I’m feeling much better about everything but just in the mornings it’s so overwhelming thinking about the future

I’m a stesser I know, I feel like I need to plan for everything and need to know what’s coming before that comes. Anyone have any suggestions on working with this? Or how you’ve worked through this ?