Will my nerves ever settle during this pregnancy?

I’m currently 29+4 with my rainbow princess. I had a mc at 11.5 weeks in March 18. I still can’t seem to get attached to this baby as I’m so scared something will happen. I haven’t bought a thing or prepared anything yet. When I was pregnant with my DS1 I had everything organised by the time I was 22 weeks. Will it get easier with time or will I continue to worry until she arrives? I feel so guilty as people think I don’t care, but I just don’t want my heart to break again