Unsupportive Husband

I’ve been a sahm for 10 years. I have three kids. Two are still in diapers. I was depressed for a very long time because I’ve put up with an emotionally abusive man who doesn’t appreciate me and degrades me any time he feels the need. He slowly oppressed into a shell over the years where I didn’t really realize it completely. He has been my only factor in making me so down. Recently he left for an 8 week job and in that time I got back to being me feeling like me and enjoying life. He got back and the tyranny started again. I’m fighting for myself and he hates me for it! He hates that I’m happy and refuse to fight with him. He hates that I’m confident. He hates that im not chasing after him or scared of losing him. Why why why are some men this way, he is a narcissist is the worst way! I’ve tried so hard but to no avail I’m still stuck in hell and im ready to get out. My kids break my heart. It’s so sad they have to deal with this but they deserve better than having a sad mom. He is a wonderful dad so that’s where this gets hard. I’m just looking for support.