Boyfriend pressured me into taking birth control

I have been dating my boyfriend for almost two years, we started having sex about three months into our relationship. We would always use condoms but after a while he started complaining about them. He started insisting every time we had sex that I take birth control. I told him that I have no problem with the condoms because we are very careful with them and that I don’t have much of a reason to take it otherwise because I have very regular periods with little symptoms. He continued to pressure and guilt trip me even though I said I eventually would, when I was ready, but he wanted me to start right away. he would always say it was “for safety” even though he pressured me to go without a condom all the time and I would let him because I couldn’t enjoy sex knowing he wasn’t. he’d also say it would help so much with cramps and regulate my period even though I’ve never had cramps and my cycle is completely regular on its own, and he was aware of that. he’d also complain that all his friends girlfriends and plenty of women my age take it so why don’t I. Fast forward a year of dealing with this I start taking birth control pills just to get him to stop. Had horrible cramps that I had never had before, constant spotting, breast pain, migraines, and broke out my skin some of the worst it’s ever been, all the while he never bothered to educate himself about birth control or show any concern for the side effects I was experiencing. Sex was awful most of the time because of how much pain I was in. I took it for a couple months hoping it would even out, but it only got worse so I quit. We talked it through and he apologized, but I don’t think he understands the extent to which it hurt me. We are also back to using condoms. A lot of my side effects cleared as soon as I stopped, but I am left with some pretty severe acne scarring as well as the emotional scarring from the whole ordeal. I still struggle with my skin a lot because of this, to the point where I don’t want to go outside. I am still filled with guilt because I reacted so badly to the pill and I can’t satisfy him. I am not sure what to do and not sure how to move past this in my head, any advice is appreciated. Note I am not looking for another method of birth control, I want to sort out my skin issues and mental issues before I even think of trying again. I am aware there are many different options I could try but I am not interested in taking any at the moment.