i was molested by my older sister.

I hope this post doesn’t make anyone judge me. I also can’t tell my parents because it’s done , it’s over with, and i think she’s changed.

My sister and i are 7 years apart. This happened to me at a very young age and i didn’t know what was going on at the time. Now that i know what was happening to me i feel dirty and partly to blame. I think about it a lot and it has never left my mind. I can’t remember the exact age it happened but i was most likely from ages 4-8. She once called me into her room and ask me if i wanted to play truth or dare. Seeing as she didn’t really liked going outside or playing games with me i was excited she wanted to play and said yes. She asked me t or d and i said dare. She said you have to do so and so to me. i don’t really want to admit what it was because i’m embarrassed. not knowing what i was doing i did what she told me to do. this carried on for maybe months or even a whole year. I thought it was normal. it led up to her asking me to have sex with her. (yes we are both females) i asked her what it was but instead of explaining she just told me what to do. she did it to me also. i’m embarrassed, i’m upset, and i can’t cope with it at all. thank you for letting me share my story.

edit: so i’m considering talking to my parents now but it would completely fuck up my whole family’s relationship with her. and mine with hers. we have a good relationship now and i don’t want to exactly ruin it. it’s been over 5 years now and i don’t know if i can tell my anyone.