I hate it so much having a messy apartment and having friends or family over while its messy. I sometimes wish i can call in from work to clean and organize the apartment more. I hate it being so messy and I hate myself for being so tired after work. My husband's friend and my friend come over to hang out but they offer to want to clean our house with us to help when I say lets hang out somewhere other than our apartment or not to come inside. I beg my husband no with friends helping because its OUR mess. WE know what's around our apartment (dirty clothes and food crumbs etc), WE caused the mess, OUR responsibility. I know half of it is mine too and I just get tired after working. I just want to keep our apartment clean to breathe and not feel like I'm walking in a dump. I feel a panic attack rising up just thinking about having guests over while our apartment is still a mess.