Confused

So this year has been one hell of a year. From removing myself & my kids from a toxic aunt who only caused nothing but drama. Moving back with my parents because of being laid off from work due to the COVID. Don’t get me wrong I love my parents but having to move back with my parents upsets me cuz I feel like I failed them but they reassured me that it was ok. Less than a month living with them my dad got into a car accident and died on scene. One of the most devastating day that is still painful for me and my family. Due to losing my father my sister, mom and I all missed out periods in July and this month of August we all got it. My mom said it was cuz of all the stress from losing my father and how much we talk and spend time with my father. It’s been hard it still hurts knowing we we will never see him again. I miss hearing his voice talking to him even a text. No matter what my dad made his rounds in making sure the family was ok. He loved his grandkids so much it hurts knowing my oldest knows he’s gone. My oldest said she he was ok that he made it home and he can fly. I’m glad he went to visit her and telling her it’s ok. We’ll be ok just one of those it hurts knowing your parent is gone. They sure do make it seem like they are invincible. Sorry I just needed to get some things off my chest. Thank you for reading this . You all have a beautiful day and bless be 😊🖤