depressing ..

hi ladies .. just wanna vent out .. i have endo and had chlamydia .. so i also have scarring .. so its reaally hard to get pregnant ive been married 6yrs .. 7yrs next month .. its hard to not have hope that someday like a miracle .. i'll fall pregnant naturally .. earlier .. i checked .. and its bfn .. its hard not to cry for it .. i keep it in all the time .. but while going to work .. my husbands' dropping me off .. i cried .. he asked .. why i say its the same i was heartbroken that my pt is negative .. and he got angry .. and told me to maybe just fuck someone on the streets so i can get a baby .. i already told him its not him that has a problem .. but still say those things to me .. now it makes me more broken .. i really want a baby between us bcoz ilove him .. now im here at my companys' restroom crying .. i just hope someday .. i'll be over this .. if its not for me maybe i'll just hope God will give me peace of mind .. that i cant reaally have my own ..