What’s wrong with me..

I already found out I have herpes n I haven’t had sex since but it’s been so hard all I think about is sex I rarely even cum or finish I don’t even get the pleasure it’s usually the guy that cums n then it’s done. But idk why I can’t go withought sex.. idk I just do love the feeling of it in me n I’m so sorry i know TMI but I wanna see if anyone else has gone through this. Again I haven’t had sex since I found out I have herpes n I have tooken my medication already so I’m good to have sex I just have to let the guy know first. I’m 19 n have had sex with around 20 something guys 🥲