HPT getting lighter? Long post, sorry...

Like most that have had miscarriages, I have found it so hard to remain calm during this pregnancy. It doesn’t help that I had bleeding at 4 weeks and have been in the ER for right-sided pain (they think it’s my kidneys, but could be ectopic too 😔). I’m already getting blood work about twice a week since the bleeding. As if it wasn’t hard enough to have faith in a healthy pregnancy... I’m already having all these complications...

But, because I’m so anxious about this pregnancy, I keep testing. As if seeing a change in pregnancy test tells me something more definitive than blood work...

So, yes, I know I need to step away from the tests. Yes, they’re causing me more anxiety. I know this and I’m hoping that once I get results from tomorrow’s blood work, I’ll stop. Be it because my levels are dropping, or have risen appropriately.

Anyhoo, sorry for the spiel. Since I’ve been testing nonstop, I’ve of course noticed a change in my HPTs. But for the worse. My test line is getting lighter. It’s not just one faulty test. I’ve taken probably 10 today since I got the lighter line... and it’s not the Hook Effect because I’ve tested that out too. It maybe gets a tiny bit darker when I water it down, but not back to the point that the test line is significantly darker than the control as it once was. My breasts have gotten more sore, and my nausea is still coming occasionally. But that’s about it.

Has anyone experienced this? I’m 5w5d. Be realistic with me, please. Good or bad.