Just want to rant about this situation,but most definitely looking for a Bible!

I have been struggling to find the right bible for me that I can understand it better. I really don't know which direction to find this type of bible or what store,but maybe one of you could help me out please? My husband and I and our child are being forced to go to church and it's has been an ongoing thing we have to hear that's getting shoved down our throats. Myself with me having anxiety. I just can't take this pressure anymore! We have no house of our own due to having bad credit. It's just not easy these days! Nothing is free but things are very very expensive. I have been putting this situation in God hands and letting him to it where it needs to go,but it just seems like the prayers I have prayed isn't getting any answers.😭