Break-Up Sex.....Let’s talk about it.

So, I was married to my ex-husband for 10 years. We had two kids together, and many memories together that built who we are today. During our marriage we had a lot of difficulties in many ways financially, emotionally, academically, just a lot of crap that got dumpted onto us. He was the man that I gave my V-card too, I also was always dedicated to him as a wife, and mother to his children. My Fairytail ending went bad, and a lot of mental abuse, physical abuse, and emotional abuse escalated to a boiling point. He filed for divorce, and at our hearing we found out that each other’s hardships were just from us noting being herd until we both were actually listening instead of fighting. He wants to work out our differences, I am DONE with the cycle of abuse & I want out. But before I knew I was done, something inside me needed reassurance.....well I got it.

BUT

I did something stupid to find out. I hadn’t had sex in a long time & the opportunity came up, and we had sex. I feel awful, this was the first time that we were together & I had someone else on my mind. I had a hard time knowing that my feelings for my ex-husband was, or wasn’t there while talking to my “new guy” (no we have NOT had sex yet, just talking). I needed validation that I have nothing left for my ex, before I continued with the guy I’m taking to now. Someone how oh my man experiment, I know feel awful that my validation came from having sex & nothing was there as it was before...Well when I got the chance to find out, I took the chance... now I feel awful, I also feel glad that I’m assured that my feelings are over a man I loved for so long. But, I also feel dirty & awful inside as well.

This has never happened before because I’ve only been with one man before, so my question is......

Is this break-up sex common? Also, I’m feeling horrible now. I know why, and what I did.... now I feel awful knowing my feelings for my ex-husband is gone. Is this common?

Need some girl talk.

Edit. The guy that I’m “TALKING” with we have not started to date, or see each other, or even came out that we want to be with each other. We are ijust talking and seeing where our conversations take us. I was married for 11 years. I have only been with 1 guy (my ex-husband). My ex-husband is leaving me, I was conflicted on my feelings...I feel like shit that their really is nothing left for the person I was with for 11 years.