Disloyal

Hey ladies I know this doesn’t have anything to do with pregnancy or periods but would like all of your opinions. Trying to make a long story short my boy friend and I have been together for almost 3 years now. The relationship started off with distrust found him on dating sites, reached out to an old f*** buddy, porn, viewing girls on different social media apps. These are just some of the things. I know you are probably thinking why would you stay with him then? Well I tried to forgive because it was so early on in the relationship. For over two years now our sex life has been gone I’m always the one taking care of him and initiating sex. I’ve known in my heart this was the case because he was watching porn. We made an agreement in our relationship not to watch it because I could tell it was getting out before me and our sex life. He always denied it saying he hasn’t watched it in years meanwhile I caught him last year watching it he seems to forget. SO he stayed with his Mom for a week because he has an alcohol issue and I was sick of his lies sent him there hoping he would wake up and clean up his act. He comes back and when he was sleeping I went through his phone to find screenshots of porn videos and even worse a screenshot of 2 only fans accounts. He didn’t pay for the only fans it was like 3 minute clips of the woman naked doing sexual things to herself. I also found a screenshot of a naked woman what looks like could have been only fans or porn. He’s been begging me not to leave him and promises he will change but how can I believe someone who has lied to me 100,000 times about all different things? What would you ladies do? And honestly how would you feel? I always put this man first sexually, emotionally everything and I’ve been put on the back burner for these women on the internet.

Thanks guys sorry that wasn’t exactly a long story short.