My love life..my dreams are shattered

I have been with my SO for a little over 16 and everything was going awesome at least that's what I thought. Last I been with him was in may of this year, it's hard to see each other when we don't living together. Anywho fast forward to end of July beginning of August I feel very strange and itchy down there, I just recently shaved +and was going to see my SO) I changed my mind and decided to see the obgyn. I go in to get checked out on 8/25/21 I get the results and I find out I have Chlamydia and vaginitis. I'm shocked because I have never had an STD/STI in my life. I tell my SO and asked have he been cheating on me he said no and I know I haven't cheating. I took two test just in case the first was wrong. Both test came out positive for Chlamydia.

I see my SO my results and told him to get tested, he did and his came back negative but he got a blood test and pee test. Ever since then he hates me even though I told him that I don't cheat I was very faithful. Also I went to pick up my blood work and I also found out that I have herpes not the STD one, yes there is a difference. The doctor explained to me that have the herpes simplex 1 which can be spread through kissing or if some had it and they touch you you can get it.

I think I have gone through the stages of a break up, now I'm just so depressed because I am kind of afraid to be with someone, I don't want to spread herpes to them and I also don't want to get another STD. I'm very sad and lonely and I feel very disgusting. Btw my Chlamydia is cleared up, I'm single and never ever want to mingle again...pretty much I have to keep myself busy so I won't feel the pain which is my heart...God still take my heart I do not need it anymore..😔😭😑

Update: after taking with my bestie and my family, and praying I feel so much better now. I feel happier, and even more loved than ever. I'm ready to move forward with my life and focus on me and what makes me happy. I pray God will send me a real love when God is ready.