A quick marriage vent..

Dear "loving" husband,

Did you ever consider that you wouldn't have to "beg me to spread my legs" if you'd stop being such an asshole and making me feel like I HAVE to have sex with you because we are married?

Did you ever consider that you wouldn't have to "beg me to suck your dick" if you'd stop bringing it up EVERY DAY when I'm trying to spend time with you and talk about things (even though it's the same things because I have no life)

Did you ever consider that I don't want to spend time with you because you make me feel like I'm not heard and like things I say especially about OUR child doesn't matter?

Did you ever think about why I always "nag" at you? Did you even think that I nag because I don't feel heard, I don't feel appreciated and because I'm always told that I do nothing all day and that I'm using you for money (when I only got $1000 from the taxes I worked out too and it still was spent on you as well as my son)

Do you ever consider that maybe I "don't care" about your feelings because you don't care about mine?

Do you ever stop and ask yourself what can be done or said different?

No. You just accuse and shame. You shame me for my "saggy boobs" and tell me to put them away because "no one wants to see them" or to find someone else to have sex with because you "aren't touching that"

You never think that my boobs are "saggy" because my body changed to give your children life. One of which you don't want and the unborn child who you claim isn't yours and you tell me all the time you want a DNA test

At this point I don't care. If you left I wouldn't care. You have put me at a place in life where I dont care.

Do you ever wonder or care about how you're treating me?

You say I don't respect you, but respect is earned.