What’s Next?

I fell in love at 22. I always told myself that I don’t ever need to date anyone and that whatever a man would do for me I can always do for myself, but then I fell in love at 22. It all felt real and ik I shouldn’t say this but it felt perfect. So much has happened in the relationship that would make anyone leave, but it’s true when people say it’s not that easy when you’re the one in the situation. I stayed and stayed and continued to stay. Why? Bc I was fed empty promises that at the time felt full. Today I left…or at least I think I did or it feels like I did. Almost 2 years and he had said and did some things and put me down more than anyone ever has in my entire life. The things he said to me are things even your worse bully probably wouldn’t even say, but I stayed. The saddest part is that as I sit here, I can’t remember life before him…? I know that I am worth way more and deserve just as much as I pour into others, but I honestly don’t know what’s next. My first love feels like my last.