Vent session

Okay little back story... my hubby and I have had 3 miscarriages from 2017-2018 then we suffered from infertilty until we finally got pregnant with my son in 2022. We decided that wed like to try for another and after 4mo of trying in 2023 we got pregnant again... sadly it ended in miscarriage again. My husband doesnt understand the emotion I go thru with this. Ive been seeing a therapist and working through my issues.. however since my m/c in December. Getting him to have sex when i need him to is always a struggle.... we have sex whenever he feels like it i try to not shoot him down bc i don't like being shot down.... and i havent been pushing it bc i dont wanna fight about it and he doesnt want us back in the rut we were in before we had my son.. which is understandable but theres like no give. And when he shoots me down he will say "thats what you used to do to me for the 6 years we were trying" I Feel like he doesn't understand the concept of there being a small window of chance of getting pregnant in a month. Like a few months ago it was 4 days before my period and i really wasnt feeling up to it and he was like "do u want another baby or not?" And I'm like i do! But my fertile window is over and i really dont want to do it. Then i get accused of only wanting to do it when I'm fertile. Its so annoying and idk what to do. I'm close to just forgetting about trying for another... bc mentally its exhausting. I'm 34 and we cant justhave sex to see what happens. I have to track ovulation and take progesterone pills4 daysafter ovulation. I.wish i.could just see what.happens but my body doesn't work that way. I'm worried that I'm going to resent him.