Am I a horrible person?

I have made a post very recently about a man being in my sexual assault support group. We've never had men before. It made us feel safe. But he's not even there because he wants to be. He's on probation and said it was either ending this group along with therapy or jail. I didn't feel comfortable with him there. He stated he didn't wanna be there or care and he just sits quietly with a hoodie on the whole time and has the counselor sign his paper. Today in the group one of the girls here was talking about rape culture and she's tired of blame being put on women for being assaulted. She looked at the guy and our group and felt the need to add and men. The counselor let us talk about it and she asked the guy if he had input and he said no. Idk what came over me. I was already uncomfortable he was here and doesn't care and isn't taking a talk as important as rape culture seriously so I asked him why he's here. He said we know why. I said not really. Just that we have a criminal with a bunch of women who have been raped and know nothing about you. I was told to be kind and he asked am I accusing him or something. I said we don't know him and for all I know he is on parole for being a rapist and is here with vulnerable women. The counselor told me if I can't stop to outside. He said that since I think it's my business the reason he was arrested was because he was part of a fraternity and he had a lasp in judgment after he got raped by his frat brother and decided to drive a car through the house. He only got probation because the rape kit came back positive and he was able to use the trauma to his advantage. He said "Happy now you judgemental bitch." The counselor said that's enough and asked us both to step out. He left so she only got to talk to me. She said that if I am gonna continue coming to this group I need to be respectful of everyone and if he wants to just sit there and get through this group therapy that's fine. She said I need to speak to my therapist about my fear of men because what I did was unacceptable. I feel really bad now. I just wasn't comfortable with a man being there. I know it's not a womens only group but I wasn't expected to have a male there. I know I maid an ass of myself ☹️

Edit,: I'm going to apologize next Friday.