Venting

I read all the book, I follow up on all the latest research and practices, I listen to elder’s advice and other mothers and I feel like no matter what I do I’m failing at motherhood. My 9 month old won’t sleep through the night. I feel like my support system thinks I’m crazy. She sleeps better with them, doesn’t cry as much, is more independent. Some days I feel like why do I even bother? It almost feels exhausting to care so much and every time I feel like I’ve made the right decision it just blows up in my face.

I love her more than anything, i would truly do anything for her; I just have never failed so badly at anything in my life. I feel like I’m starting to resent my husband because everything just seems to come easy to him and nothing has changed in his life and it’s a struggle for me.

I don’t expect a response I just needed to get this off my chest,