He showed up drunk at 5 am

We had been together for a few months.

2 weeks ago After a bad fight, he broke up with me. We didn’t talk for a few days..

Part of that fight was about money I had given him some cash to cover a specific cost, but he ended up spending all of it without asking me or telling me.

Then on Thursday at 5 a.m., he showed up at my place drunk, crying, apologizing.

Said he missed me. Said he was sorry. Said he wanted me back.

I let him in. Forced him to sleep and later that day We got back together.

Last night, he said he was going to meet a friend and it wouldn’t be anything extreme.

This morning at 6 a.m., he rang my doorbell again.

I picked up the speaker and heard him talking to a stranger ,someone literally telling him what to say to me.

He came upstairs, said he had just been “in the area,” lied about where he had been, and with whom,wouldn’t let me look at his phone.

This after telling me the night before that he didn’t even have money to go shopping and needed to borrow some from his mom..

He kept defending what he did and turning everything..I told him I didn’t want to continue and He left.

I blocked him.

He blocked me back and deleted his messages..

I feel super sick.

Used and stupid …

Angry at myself for believing him..