Scared I'm pregnant again

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I hope I'm not as I still have 11 days until my period, but I'm definitely experiencing some things that are in question. My nipples are sore when I bf, I have been spotting light pink/light brown for the last 2 days, cramping and backaches. I hope it is premenstrual as I started af 4 months after giving birth even though I ebf. I am on the mini pill, but have missed a few days here and there ugh!! Now I'm paranoid! I really hope I start my cycle in Feb. Am I spooking myself!??? I get nauseous thinking about buying a pregnancy test! 😩 babies are a blessing, I just know I'll get so much judgment being pregnant this soon and I don't know if I could handle it myself emotionally!