So, I’ve been really stuck in a rut lately, and I’m not really sure how to get out of it. I have been out of a very bad relationship for a little while now (that lasted for over half of my life) and I honestly do not have any idea who I actually am. I have a hard time actually wanting things. I do not know what I enjoy. The best thing in my life is my sixteen year old son, whom I had when I myself was sixteen. I have been on and off of medications for anxiety, depression, CPTSD, and insomnia. I hate taking them because they make me feel like I’m just existing. I would rather feel bad than feel nothing. Just looking for some advice.