It hurts me every time I see a negative  test result . That's all me and my so have been wanting and every time I do see that amazing POSITIVE line I end up misscarying (happend twice) it kills me . All my cousins and friends that never wanted a kid got the blessing to have kids . And I mean like baby boomer type shit . Kid after kid . And I'm over here dying to have one and just can't. What's wrong with me why cant I carry properly . I do everything I'm suppose to and I never get further then 8 weeks 😞😢 I guess I need to just seriously stop thinking about it . Even tho I have . It's always when my period is weeks late I get nervous and go on a pregnancy test spree, just to get back that big NOPE TRY AGIN NEXT TIME line* that seems to love to pop up 😩😒😒 rant over now .