Am I the only one?

Im straight, and have been with the same dude for three years . Hes controlling and doesnt even like me talking to females. But something about females appeal to me highly . Like I dont knos what it is but I honestly want to be with a female and him not figure it about it even though that is cheating. The thought of doing things to a female and having things done to me by a female is a huge turn on and gets me wet.