I feel bad :(

So I feel really bad...I always tell my BF how much I hate porn and don't ever want him to use it cuz it makes me feel terrible about myself and it makes me feel like he doesn't really love me...but I looked at some the other day...only cuz I wanted to find something new to try! But I still did it after telling him not too...I know it's wrong to do that! Should I tell him? And also...What are some other ways I can find different things to do to keep things interesting and fun for him?