I am a freaky girl 👅💦

So I am a really freaky girl but I feel like I can't fulfill those fantasies because my husband is so conservative . He is the kind of guy who wants it on the bed only. I offer to go down on him and suck his brains out but he sometime says no. I try to grab his penis and play with it but he sometimes tells me to stop. He has never gone down on me, not once!! What am I supposed to do? Like dude let me rock your world, let me suck that big cock. Put it in my mouth now!! Let me ride your big cock all night until you cum. Give it to me in the shower, in the car, on the couch, on the counter top, against the wall!!