I am hurting

I am hurting deep down and I can’t stop hurting. I had been on and off so many different anti depressants and yesterday my doctor put me on a new one, the strongest one he has but I doubt it’ll work. And I’m just exhausted of being depressed and everyday I’m just crying and I’m sick of hurting just by living, and I’ve tried therapy as well and it did nothing. And to make it worse, my mom thinks depression is all fake and is says I’m using it as an excuse to be lazy in life. She says I’m a failure and a waste.