Please don’t judge/leave negative comments

I’m terrible at everything I do. I have no skills. I have no “special talents”. Nothing that makes me “stand out”. I’m 100lbs at least over weight, and I’m depressed. I think how much better off the entire world would be if I just off-ed myself. I wish so badly that I could actually bring myself to do it, but I never can. My boyfriend is the sweetest, best thing that’s ever happened to me. I love him with every being in my body. I think about what that would do to him and I can’t bring myself to hurt him. I’m afraid that if he ever found out this is how I felt in my head he wouldn’t want to be with my anymore. A side note; I truly want to see a therapist but don’t think I will be able to afford it.