How to get married to have sex only?

I am desperate. I need dick ASAP. But I’m also the pickiest most virgin 20 year old out there.

Sometimes I reach a point where I could take my clothes off and run out in the wild to beg someone to fuck me

But I haven’t even had my first kiss.

I started touching my self when I was 12 and thought by 16 I’d be losing my virginity. But I AM SO PICKY or crush on celebrities who are 20 years older than me. I can’t just get into a relationship.

The people around me aren’t my type. Idk.....

I AM A VIRGIN WHY DO I CRAVE SEX SO MUCH

I only rub, nothing ever been inside me. Why do I feel like I need something inside me this very second!!!!??????

How do people get into relationships?

I freak out when guys confess to me. I push them away and just don’t see myself with anyone around me

What should I do? I can’t have a dating profile because my parents would kill me. I am expected to get married and then have sex and kiss and do what I want. But I don’t want to get married yet, I just want to have sex.