We live in different countries and know each other from CS and we started chatting and talking by phone every day from 9 months ago! After a while it went to sexting too but I told him 3 times which it’s my first time,and after 9 months he traveled 20 hours to see me, and I thought it would go great, first 3 days were so good, kissing and holding hands and cuddle. The first time he got excited I did some hand job for him, and when he said it was really good I mentioned that it was my first time again. But suddenly he changed he said he doesn’t want to have sex with me as he doesn’t want to be someone’s first and leave after that, which makes me feel good and rejected at the same time! But the problem is after this he doesn’t want to kiss me or even holding my hands ! He thinks I changed since he left but I don’t know what should I feel now!