So my husband and I were both virgins going into our marriage. I wanted to be mentally and physically prepared for sex so I did a TON of research about male and female body parts, what increases the sexual attraction, men's and women's common favorite positions etc. I even remember looking up a detailed article on how to give head (very detailed, I was very surprised 😂)

He knew I researched all this but I didn't tell him I also watched porn as like a visual aid. I had never really been into porn before but now sometimes I still watch it if I'm masturbating. I wish he knew as much as I do so he could do as good of a job for me during intercourse. Even when I try to teach him I'm not very good at explaining it. I blame myself for not being a better teacher and I blame him for not putting more effort into knowing my body even if that means researching.