help me

so when i was 14-15 i used a dildo...and it mad ene bleed a tiny bit...and im 17 about to turn 18 now...we had sex a year ago..he was my first time...iv never had anyone inside me till him and i bled alot more with him..and he refuses to let me call him my first...and refuses to say he took my virginity...i was saving it for so long..i didnt think it counted to a dildo 😟 im fucking broken as hell rn..what do u guys think? did the dildo take it or did he