What do i do to deserve this..

What do i do to deserve to be cheated on multiple times, to be lied to, hidden from the world and never shown off, to hide things from me, to be hit, to be judged and punished for everything i do wrong, to be intentionally hurt both physically and emotionally, to play with my feelings, to be yelled at, to not be taken care of, to rarely be shown affection and love , to not be a priority, to be ignored sometimes for no reason, to be blocked, to be asked to change.. by the one person who was supposed to love me more than anything.