I can’t orgasm during sex

I feel so bad for saying this, but I really haven’t experienced an orgasm with my boyfriend. I’ve come close, and all around when he goes down on me/fingers me or plays with my clit/fucks me it all feels good, but I can’t orgasm.

This is even worse but I’ve faked it more than a few times, just because he’ll be doing it for a very long time and I feel pressured. I hate that I take so long.

In the moment, I try not to think about how long I’m taking and just enjoy it, but I get distracted sometimes. I can orgasm on my own, just not with him, and I don’t know why.

It honestly makes me wanna cry! I can always get him off but no matter how good it feels for me I can’t and I have to fake it. Please give me tips ):