HELP ME PLEASE😩

Okay so I let my mind take over me COMPLETELY. Ik this is a bad thing, but I have a boyfriend that my mom doesn’t know about, and when I sneak to see him it’s like I feel so sick. I literally throw up and I can’t eat the WHOLE time and it isn’t just with him. This is with every guy I’ve been with. After I throw up I feel better but if I stay the night with him I wake up at like 5am and throw up and back to feeling sick again. I just want to feel normal and be a normal teen who sneaks off and enjoy her teen years . I am so tired of this. I need help. I love him and I want to spend more time with him but I don’t as much because of how I start puking. Any advice? Please help😩. Is there anything I could take or do? Any tips? I don’t want him to think I’m weird.

**I don’t want to hear “don’t sneak around” I want help!**

**Also I’ve went to the doctor and they prescribed me hydrozine and it doesn’t work at all. I’m crying for help😩**