Loosing my Virginity

I have really mixed feelings about a guy so we had sex for the first time last night and at night I just feel in love with him and during the day he's just kinda rude not to me like he litters and is judgemental what the hell I just realized that's not what I want. We lost our virginity to each other I guess we could stay friends I don't know man I feel like a dumbass. Wtf wow go me