is this weird?

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so i’ve had sex with multiple guys, but i’ve only gave one of them a bj (my ex, and also the person i lost my virginity to) i just feel weird giving blowjobs? is that just me? i feel like i’ll have sex with anyone but i have to trust them or smth to give them a bj- is it just me? lmao anyways maybe i just don’t like to give them a bj bc idk how exactly/i’m afraid i’ll be bad at it? anyone got tips heheh?