Is it okay?...

Taja
Okay me and my boyfriend have been together almost for 5 years. We have sex a lot, we always like to try new things. I have been on birthcontrol for like all my life and I take it daily also. We no longer use protection, and if we do its so he can cum in me with the condom on because I always make him pull out if he doesn't have one on.... But one night, everything was just so perfect and I actually wanted him to cum in me... So I let him. My friend always told me to stand up and let it leak out? So I did. I took the b pill the next day because I was freaking out. (I'm not pregnant, this was a while ago) but lately he's just wanting to cum in me without a condom on and honestly I want to, too but I just can't do that risk again. What do you think? Or what can help?