Love hurts, and so do I.

Okay I need some major advice, because my life is becoming so complex and I have no idea what to do. So, I have been in love with my boyfriend ever since I saw him when I was 8 years old. I've always wanted to be his, and now that I am, I've never been happier.. However, there is trouble brewing in paradise. I am in love with another guy, and I have been for 5 years. He goes to a different school, and I barely see him. However, the other guy is always on my mind. Just like my boyfriend.. I'm so confused, I dream about both of them all the time and I know how people say "it's your decision" and what not, however, it's not that simple. I've always wanted my boyfriend, but I've also wanted this other guy.. I think I'm just confused? Please help..