Feeling lonely

So on top of my now ex cheating and breaking up with me I got fired from my job yesterday. This month just sucks. My ex is on a two week road trip and is pretty much ignoring his phone. But I wish I could turn to him for help I miss him so much. And I know I should leave him and I am trying to. It hurts more because he was my first serious relationship and he took my virginity. I just feel so alone 😢