First Time FAILED

To say my first time was terrible is an understatement. I lost it almost a year ago and I can't get over it.

My freshman year of college I met a guy online, he seemed really sweet and cute, and I was really horny. One thing led to another and I asked him over to do some things. Now I had no intention on giving him my v card, or even seeing him again. After we did stuff I was still so worked up, as I hadn't cum yet, and really nervous because I could sense it would go somewhere. He started to play with me, asking to keep going, and saying I knew I wanted it. FYI he knew I was a virgin. I gave in and he immediately went in, wasn't gentle just went for it, and lasted 1 min. He then just got dressed, and I took the hint and did too. But when he saw my face he said to me "you know, this won't be a one time thing, but don't get too attached, I'm not looking for a relationship"

I know it's not the worst ever first time, but I cry every time I think about it