Too scared to test?

Back 2 years ago (I was 15) I miscarriedšŸ˜© but now the past week/two weeks Ive been ā€˜feeling pregnantā€™? Me and my boyfriend have been very careful using condoms etc but a few have slipped off inside mešŸ¤ Iā€™ve had slight cramps on my left side mainly, craving pickled eggs and chicken ball batter with sweet&sour; saucešŸ˜… headaches, feeling sick but mainly at eveningšŸ¤” and Iā€™ve also had dreams of being pregnant? I also had my neighbor ring me the other day to say that she have been having dreams for the previous two nights that I was pregnant? My boobs are also very sore to the point Iā€™ve gone to my doctor whoā€™s referred me to a booby doctor, I also just want to cry at everything! Back pain is also an issue aswell as the metallic taste!

My last period was only 2/3 days unlike the usual 5 days, normally my periods are painful and I canā€™t do anything but this time they werenā€™t as bad. Iā€™m 9 days away from my next period but Iā€™m in the whole, ā€˜itā€™d be too early to testā€™ and the ā€˜Iā€™ve had a period itā€™s highly unlikelyā€™ the other thing that is stopping me is seeing the 2 lines again and having an emotional break down as me or my boyfriend donā€™t want a baby (Iā€™m 17, heā€™s 20, legal in my state) but I will never abort, itā€™d destroy me but so will the worry of a possible miscarriage again!

I have numerous symptoms but how likely is it reallyšŸ¤·šŸ½ā€ā™€ļø HELP! Thank you in advance sorry itā€™s long