OPINIONS PLEASE!!!

So im 16 and I was recently sexually assaulted so I dont really feel 100% comfortable with having full vaginal sex with him right now. My boyfriend says that he will wait for as long as I need to recover but I don't want him to feel like im not trying. So I bought a dildo so he can watch as I masturbate and so he can know that im trying to get back to where I was before. Do you guys think he will like it?