Tbh it just hurt. me and him took eachothers virginity. We were really close and he always stayed the night with my brothers. Me and him had always had a thing for eachother. So naturally we were like “hey why not take eachothers virginity.” We ended up in a Chair in my living room. Everyone was asleep. We are very comfortable with eachother so we were making little jokes the whole time and he was trying to make me feel better because he’s a big fella down there if you know what I mean and it hurt like hell. At one point we had stopped because we heard my dads alarms go off for work. He went in my brothers room and laid on the couch in there. After about 10 minutes and my dad hadn’t gotten up he came back out to the living room where I was pretending to be asleep in the chair. He gave me a kiss and whispered that he’d come back out here and cuddle with me after my dad left. So after my dad left I ended up going in my brothers room and laying on the couch with him. We were all cuddled up then we decided we wanted to try this again so we went out to the shed in my backyard and tried again. I was just uncomfortable and he was too so we stopped. As we just chilled out there and talked and laughed. We went back inside and went out separate ways. When the sun came up he came back in the living room and asked me to walk him out because he had to go get ready for work. I gave him a kiss and he told me he loved me. And even now we joke about all the weird places we’ve done it and laugh about it. Anyways we messed around up until about a month ago. (2 years) He started becoming a big hoe so I let him go. I don’t regret who I did it with but I do regret how young I was. I do love him very much but it was time we went our separate ways. He’s still the only one Ive been with though. Neither one of us were emotionally ready to take that step but we thought we were lol.