I’ve never orgasmed before.

I’m 19 and ive never had an orgasm before. I’ve never had sex before, and I didn’t start masturbating until a few months ago. I’ve been masturbating regularly, and I feel like most of the time i’m *almost* there but i never reach it. I’ve only ever tried different ways of clitoral stimulation with my hands bc i don’t have any vibrators or toys. What do i do? I’m really self conscious about this and it’s making me really sad.